hmm.. was reading some blogs arbitrarily on blogspot.. i have realized that what i scribble here in this blog is all arbit.. nonsense sometimes.. and i guess i don do justice with what is called “blogging”. Hmmm, lets c.. what i can come up with…? the only thing which i could think of right now is about my last semester in college..! As it just got over.. few days back.. memories still reside, deep inside my mind.. trying to fade out with time but then there are things which keep on bringing them back to life.. ah..
hmmm.. it started of pretty well, with lots of night outs in the starting.. was trying to install f7 in most of the comps in sunlab.. and configure everything using ldap.. dint do much on the ldap side though.. it was fun.. starting days in delta… there were long periods when i was away from hostel.. well the whole semester was like that i guess.. used to go to room at around 2-3 every day.. and then half heartedly get up in the morning and go for some stupid class.. sometimes there were times when i dint even realise which all classes i had attended till the lunch break…
msging became an important activity of my daily life… they used to cheer me up so much..!! things were so good.. got some really close friends this sem.. a few bonds got more strong and some new ones were formed..initial few days were just too good..! then came delta inductions.. two continuous night outs and the whole thing got ready.. was really sleepy on the day of the induction.. but then ran away to city, still remember that day.. it was a nice day! to buy books!
in between there was a time when i was really confused abt my future.. as in what will i do after this btech.. and all.. there was this stupid “time” test for mba aspirants.. i attended that.. jlt… well i realised that its not my cup of tea.. so almost made up my mind for gre.. and even started preparing for that.. bought a gre prep book.. and started going through the word list every morning.
then came the convo weekend.. and my mood swings..! had a nice time and also there were things which made me think, think about things which were, i guess important.. and weird…and unusual..! hmmm.. spent a lot of time on it..and hence screwed up my first ct.. but no regrets..! for the reason i screwed it is more important than anythin else! hmmm there was a dull period just after the cts.. don remember much though.. but something happened at that time..
ah.. pragyan work started after that.. and also festember preparations.. also started thinking of participating in shaastra.. but then that plan was scrapped soon.. went around here and there for festember publicity work.. it was nice and interesting too.. met some interesting people.. festember came towards late September.. it was different.. well organised.. and the best thing abt this edition of festember was the amount of participation and the quality of stuff..! though it was pretty dull phase for me.. the only good time was when i went for a pottery workshop…hmmm there were some issues which got resolved by the time festember got over.. with the dream of everything getting back to normal the whole new trying-to-be-cheerful phase of mine started..
shaastra came some two weeks later.. dint go but then happy for harshendu, who won it! anyway that weekend was also a nice one.. had to run around a lot.. passport camp.. running off to city for getting a new set of passport photos with a 2-3 hrs deadline.. banging into the dean’s office to get some forms attested.. standing in a queue day long.. but then it was all so good! and pragyan work also got some pace.. we finally started pragyan work in full flow… designing, coding the cms.. structuring the whole new team.. everything was done.. properly..
classes were also getting pretty much interesting.. used to get late almost everyday.. half asleep, i used to reach class.. dint even noe at time which lecture i m going for.. the only good things were the mornings.. it was becoming a daily routine without which each day seemed to be so dull and incomplete..!! running away to snacky at 10.10 everyday.. msging during classes, even in ht’s! and skipping lunch everyday.. and then going to snaky again in the evening.. again back to work in the evening.. dinner @ dhaba or azeez..!! again work for sometime and then off to sleep… msging side by side.. if things were normal! well that was my daily shedule.. monotonous..except for days when..
ah.. sometime in between towards late september i was introduced, actually re-introduced to the word of blogging.. soon it became a habit and later on addiction.. and now..just cant live without scribbling something here..
well the last one month in college was a roller coaster ride for me.. ups and downs.. and more downs.. and some more downs! cpc’s.. not a big deal for me as i never got bothered by them even after getting royally raped by them… pragyan work was becoming very hectic.. brochures, more brochures and some more brochures! thankfully got some real decent support from my team.. thanks to those people! and then the continuous 6 night outs phase! i guess durga pooja and garba were at the same time! mood was getting weirder.. and weirder.. was very irritated at times! went for garba once.. a much needed break from college.. had planned of going to chennai but then got canceled due to some reasons.. should have gone at that time… pragyan website design came up in the mean time.. and we all started working on it in full flow.! some more issues came up.. tried hard not to spend time alone..! then came the practicals.. hmm.. screwed one.. and the other was good.. cpc’s came up for other depts.. everyone got their piece of the royal rape!
there were a few nice times here and there.. in between.. at times when i wanted to be happy!! arbit bakar in hostel.. or while roaming around in the campus or the trips to city! diwali was around the corner.. my first diwali away from my family.. had almost made up my mind of not feeling bad about this.. and even told the same to friends.. used to ask them to cheer up.. but then on the day… wanted to do something unusual.. something which would have made me happy.. but then.. was at all time low!! dint feel like doing anything…
the phase between diwali and sems was good.. everyday was just too good.. time spent at the new canteen or in octa.. remember each and every second!! started study too.. sincerely.. spent more time in hostel.. with friends.. started spending more time in the library.. ah.. that word always reminds me of an incident which happened towards the end of 4th semester.. i still remember that day.. perfectly.. with each and every minute detail.. anyway chuck don want to spoil my mood.. those times were just too good.. and as said.. good times are always followed by bad ones!! the sems started.. not that i hate sems.. but then each exam was followed by something weird.. and it happened after each sem exam.. and my blogging also increased.. arbit category received the max no of posts during this time i guess! coincidences also started becoming an integral part of my life.. cant forgive myself for somethings.. even when i noe there was no fault of mine..anywhere.. but then.. it all happened bcoz of me…
day by day.. was getting desperate to run away from that place.. which had given me reasons to laugh at the same time make me cry..! sem exams came to an end soon.. and it was time for all of us to part ways.. for sometime atleast..! it all started again.. memories of the past starting flashing back again in my mind.. wanted to avoid some things.. wanted to be quiet.. but i guess that only made everything go wrong.. my quietness only made things go weird.. i dint want to do it.. but then something inside me forced me to behave that way.. don have explanations and justification for my actions.. for why i did it.. i just did it!! dint want to leave things on that note.. but i guess i left it.. nothing can be done… it has gone.. time has gone.. but then i guess i had my own reasons for all that and i guess i don need to give explanations to anyone..!
anyway i m back home now.. it feels good to be so far away.. but at times.. just miss a lot!
hmmm.. that was my whole semester.. a flashback.. there are things and times which i do remember, worth mentioning also.. but then i guess they should just be left as it is..!
ps: i remember things, and i think about them… guess thats my biggest fault!